To start with some context. It was this night as with every night for the past 100 days that i've done my routine of practicing lucid dreaming.
The aim of this "practice" was to test the potential applications of lucid dreaming, and of writing down a proven guide (COMING SOON) on how others can start practicing lucid dreaming.
of course, Its a very Arduous task that could easily go wrong in many ways. most notably, Insomnia.
Insomnia, Can cause hallucinations. because your brain is tired.
and I have a history of mental illness, and a clear cut case of schizophrenia (if it wasn't evident enough, you moron.)
Now why was this important to mention? because one of the symptoms with schizophrenia, among other things, is that it causes you to hallucinate at times.
Combine Insomnia with an active phase of schizophrenia, and you get Twice the hallucinations. or More Vivid hallucinations.
Then, We add Lucid dreaming into the mix, which Doctors Warn could exacerbate symptoms associated with schizophrenia.
all three combined, would mean hallucinations would not only be frequent, but highly vivid as well.
before i get to the incident, i will list off some hallucinations i've experienced Prior to my encounter, as context to my state of mind at the time.
With that in mind, You should have enough Context as to make up your mind on my encounter.
after having taken enough melatonin pills to kill a horse, i went around my humble apartment to shut off all the lights.
i was rather exhausted and ill, and the only thing in my mind was to attempt a successful lucid dream, as i've only had restless dreamless nights this past week.
but as i prepared to sleep, I've noticed a cold Chilling presence with me.
I looked out at the pitch blackness outside, and saw what appeared to be some silhouette of a woman. and as i drew closer, i could make out all the little details.
The woman was hunched forward, Deathly pale with long black hair. she had an inhumanly large Grin on her face, and a predatory gaze, staring directly at me.
and most shocking of all... was she had TWO MASSIVE FUCKIN BREASTS!!!
I was Scared Stiff.
But as quickly as i could comprehend her... she quickly faded... and Vanished!
This Could've very well been a hallucination, if not for how vividly i've remembered her in such a detailed manner, which is unusual for hallucinations at least in my case.
Infact, i remember such clear details that I could draw her. and thats exactly what i did. it wouldn't hurt since its been so long since i've last drawn, and i can use this as an oportunity to try out some other programs besides MsPaint.
below is probably one of my quickest, and best works yet.
whether this was a ghost or not, is up to debate. but what i do know, is that i should've left the window open.